Dealing with growing up being bullied by other kids

As a kid I was very much the loner, and this began at Primary school and very shy, yet when my mum left on my first day, I never cried but tried to get to grips with it. I was bullied by kids in the higher years and would threaten to cut me open and I believed it. 

I made sure when I went to Secondary school this would never happen again and thankfully it didn't. I still lacked confidence, and still felt out of my depth but I learned how to make sure I looked after myself too. i did have an eating disorder and kept it quiet but was paranoid about my weight. I had which kids would pick on me about my teeth and they way I spoke, but I still tried my hardest not to allow these jabs as much as possible and fought my way through my school years as I couldn't wait for them to be over. 

I witnessed other kids being bullied, and being picked on, and there were kids at Primary school got bullied a lot worse bullying, like one of the boys in the other years, couldn't walk down a corridor without being told he smelled, yet he never picked a fight and went around putting up with it.

I did tell my mum and she dealt with it, and spoke to one of the teachers about it. I felt like I was some sort of doll being so petite, not grown much now I am 40, I guess some kids are born small, and that is me. 

That would bother me, my height and this effected how other kids would treat me, but I held my own and have accepted my height now, yet I would pray to be tall, I guess God has no control over this, so it is as it is. I will always be petite and so acceptance of yourself makes all the difference. 

It not about how a person looks but are treated, because of it and raise you voice, don't deal with bullying silently and tell someone. Now there is Safeguarding, for kids and so that has made a massive change and if kids continue to bully they will be taken into a another class and teachers will speak with parents about it. Some parents can be unaware of their child being bullied at school, so working in a few nurseries I had worked, if you spot any signs like body language, scared and withdrawn, then it could be a sign and so parents will be told and chatted in private. 

Bullying can be a factor of how child feels and can travel with them as they grow, so encourage kids to speak to someone and get support. 

Many thanks for reading, 

Carrie X