Building confidents as a mum

Everything I do I doubt myself, and has become a habit. I share a lot about my life online, and I doubt this too. It is safe to say I am a doubter and proud about it, but know it something I progressively changing. 

I am learning to look after myself without feeling guilty that "I shouldn't be doing that as its selfish and being selfish is wrong". NO IT IS NOT! my gut tells me. I have learned your gut says a thousand things and I am learning to use it to stop the doubting. 

Thing about being a mum I thought I'd have it all sussed as I have looked after other peoples children, but it is totally different. There is no running away and passing the responsibility and it can fall on your shoulders and covered in pooh, and then phone rings, the door goes and its like "Why didn't anyone tell me?", "I never knew it will be like this", and I didn't. Yet I naturally loved my little boy and couldn't believe he had arrived and it took a while to sink it. I never had issues about bonding, but it was getting to know this little human and meant that I would have to get myself together. 

I have come to see I will always be doubting but I know how to handle it now and answer it, and that is by saying "I know what I am doing, and I know myself, and prove it to myself, and I have done that by setting goals for me and my son, and grow our relationship by sharing my love to him. He now tells me he loves me and it really does make my heart melt. So I feel that I have done alright and the doubt has become less. 

I can cook for my son, I can get him to read a book and can help get his homework done and be there on time when he comes home from school, and do practice affirmations and even have a notebook with them written down, and this has helped me a lot. 

I have a gratitude journal and go through what I am thankful for including how I feel about myself and I have changed a lot. I am no longer a stranger to myself, being a human being and a mum, and have more self belief in myself than ever before. 

So focus on what you can rather than what you can't do.

I have books on parenting and other topics on amazon.com under the names Carrie Challoner and Carrie Holmes, so if you'd like to read them then take a look.  

Many thanks for reading, 

Carrie X